Darling, I hope that one day you find yourself as beautiful as i see you every single day. Maybe when that happens, you’ll come back to me. All i ever wish is the best for you, I wish things didnt turn out this way..I cant remember the last time I felt a connection like this to someone. Im really working on blocking out everything and keeping myself positive.. i havent been listening to sad songs or wallowing, but I know this is all gonna hit me, next time im not sober for example. and this is all gonna come crashing down on me, and that scares the hell out of me. i feel it already seeping into my mind, and i actually have to make a constant effort to push it away. i just wanna hold you again..